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Monday, November 22, 2010
David Crowder Band - SMS [Shine]
For anyone that might actually still read this blog... Sorry I haven't been updating recently... It turns out being married is really time-consuming. Who knew?! Hope you enjoy this little video from my favorite Christian artist. Happy Thanksgiving!
Monday, July 26, 2010
Why...
NOTE TO READER: The words Gyneocologist and Pap Smear are used in here. Your imagination can concoct the rest. Read on at your own risk.
Short version: I used to be promiscuous in college. Not as bad as a lot of people I know, but I still regret a lot of things I did, and wish I'd done a lot of life differently. But it's part of my story now, so...
When I was about 23 years old, I was told I had HPV. And not only that, but I had one of the strains that had been linked to cervical cancer. My doctor must have been a crock though, because she didn't act concerned at all. She just took some biopsies and ordered that I come back every 3 months for repeat pap smears to "monitor things". So I did. I went every 3 months for like a year and a half. Then something weird happened- my last pap came back totally normal. And that really was my last pap. For 7 years.
7 years I let go by. My next visit to the gynecologist was in 2008. Normal pap smear. And my next one after that was last week- and only then because I wanted to start birth control before I get married next month. Yeah. (no results yet)
About a year ago- maybe a bit longer, I first heard this story about one of my old sorority sisters, Rachel. I remember her as being so sweet. Always a smile, always a lady. It was at this time I learned she was a Christian, and it was also at this time I learned that she had been diagnosed with stage 4 cervical cancer. I remember reading her story, and feeling like I had the wind punched directly out of me. What?!? She was not like me! She wasn't at all promiscuous, she was married, and she had a little girl! I was just this regretful, washed up, born again old maid. We had the same exact thing happen to us. But I had lived in a way that would warrant something like this- and more. She didn't. I got a little slap on the wrist and a clean bill of health. She got a death sentence.
This afternoon, I saw on Facebook that Rachel passed away earlier today. Leaving behind a sweet little girl, husband, family, and a legacy of a charge to get Gardasil. I read her entries on Caring Bridge, and just wept. Am still weeping. Bewildered. I just DON'T GET IT. Why not me? I'M the one who deserves this!
I can totally attest to God's grace in my life. For more reasons than this. And I am intensely curious at what the heck is going to be so important in my life that I couldn't be the one to be taken.
For more information on Gardasil, click here.
To read Rachel's story, click here.
Short version: I used to be promiscuous in college. Not as bad as a lot of people I know, but I still regret a lot of things I did, and wish I'd done a lot of life differently. But it's part of my story now, so...
When I was about 23 years old, I was told I had HPV. And not only that, but I had one of the strains that had been linked to cervical cancer. My doctor must have been a crock though, because she didn't act concerned at all. She just took some biopsies and ordered that I come back every 3 months for repeat pap smears to "monitor things". So I did. I went every 3 months for like a year and a half. Then something weird happened- my last pap came back totally normal. And that really was my last pap. For 7 years.
7 years I let go by. My next visit to the gynecologist was in 2008. Normal pap smear. And my next one after that was last week- and only then because I wanted to start birth control before I get married next month. Yeah. (no results yet)
About a year ago- maybe a bit longer, I first heard this story about one of my old sorority sisters, Rachel. I remember her as being so sweet. Always a smile, always a lady. It was at this time I learned she was a Christian, and it was also at this time I learned that she had been diagnosed with stage 4 cervical cancer. I remember reading her story, and feeling like I had the wind punched directly out of me. What?!? She was not like me! She wasn't at all promiscuous, she was married, and she had a little girl! I was just this regretful, washed up, born again old maid. We had the same exact thing happen to us. But I had lived in a way that would warrant something like this- and more. She didn't. I got a little slap on the wrist and a clean bill of health. She got a death sentence.
This afternoon, I saw on Facebook that Rachel passed away earlier today. Leaving behind a sweet little girl, husband, family, and a legacy of a charge to get Gardasil. I read her entries on Caring Bridge, and just wept. Am still weeping. Bewildered. I just DON'T GET IT. Why not me? I'M the one who deserves this!
I can totally attest to God's grace in my life. For more reasons than this. And I am intensely curious at what the heck is going to be so important in my life that I couldn't be the one to be taken.
For more information on Gardasil, click here.
To read Rachel's story, click here.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
OUR Blog :)
My sweet fiance created a little page for us to share pictures, thoughts, experiences, etc., and I wanted to kindly direct you to this new page for updates now! Please visit often and "join"! Eventually there will be additional wedding information for our guests, and even a place to RSVP. We are both looking forward to the next few months, and covet your prayers on our behalf.
Click here to visit!
Click here to visit!
Long overdue update and prayer.
My fiancee JUST said, "in 108 days, what's mine is yours!", and instantly my mind is just blown.
Yes, I said fiancee. I know, it's been a while since I've updated this thing... Let's see... I went to see Mute Math and David Crowder in November, went to Texas for 1/2 of December because I got a new baby nephew on November 24 who I'm just crazy about, went on an awesome fun ski trip to Breckenridge in March, and I kinda got myself engaged on April 16. Yeah. I'm going to marry a wonderful man that I don't think I've mentioned once on this blog! Most everyone who'd be reading this would already know, but just in case: Tom and I started dating last August 14, and we are getting married this coming August 28. Short versions are always best. :)
I cannot even BEGIN to express how weird this whole "I'm getting married" thing is. It's just I've been single for so long! The thought of merging two very independent, single, self-sufficient lives really starts to boggle me after about 20 seconds. My head starts spinning, I start seeing spots, the works. How is this going to work?!? I dunno.
I'd prayed for so long to be blessed with "my One" and for my future husband, and now that God has answered my prayer, I'm praying in a whoooooole new way- more for insight, and wisdom while planning this one single day that's going to launch a completely new phase of life, and patience- LOTS of that... and then more wisdom, and STILL for my future husband, and our future kids, and our family, and extended families... My prayer life has really picked up.
On another note, yet still speaking of prayer, I would love it if you shared any prayer requests you might have so I can pray for you as well. I am totally convinced that 2010 is my personal "year of jubilee". MANY long term prayers of mine have been radically answered this year, and it's been really faith building- AND challenging! It's as if God is very bluntly saying, "Yeah, I've been here, and I've heard every request, and I really do count tears and the little things really do matter to Me. My timeline isn't like yours, but here- maybe THIS will help you trust me more." Seriously. Why do I doubt?! Why do you doubt? Email me at angelaxid@gmail.com- I would be so honored to pray with/for you about whatever.
I love you!
Yes, I said fiancee. I know, it's been a while since I've updated this thing... Let's see... I went to see Mute Math and David Crowder in November, went to Texas for 1/2 of December because I got a new baby nephew on November 24 who I'm just crazy about, went on an awesome fun ski trip to Breckenridge in March, and I kinda got myself engaged on April 16. Yeah. I'm going to marry a wonderful man that I don't think I've mentioned once on this blog! Most everyone who'd be reading this would already know, but just in case: Tom and I started dating last August 14, and we are getting married this coming August 28. Short versions are always best. :)
I cannot even BEGIN to express how weird this whole "I'm getting married" thing is. It's just I've been single for so long! The thought of merging two very independent, single, self-sufficient lives really starts to boggle me after about 20 seconds. My head starts spinning, I start seeing spots, the works. How is this going to work?!? I dunno.
I'd prayed for so long to be blessed with "my One" and for my future husband, and now that God has answered my prayer, I'm praying in a whoooooole new way- more for insight, and wisdom while planning this one single day that's going to launch a completely new phase of life, and patience- LOTS of that... and then more wisdom, and STILL for my future husband, and our future kids, and our family, and extended families... My prayer life has really picked up.
On another note, yet still speaking of prayer, I would love it if you shared any prayer requests you might have so I can pray for you as well. I am totally convinced that 2010 is my personal "year of jubilee". MANY long term prayers of mine have been radically answered this year, and it's been really faith building- AND challenging! It's as if God is very bluntly saying, "Yeah, I've been here, and I've heard every request, and I really do count tears and the little things really do matter to Me. My timeline isn't like yours, but here- maybe THIS will help you trust me more." Seriously. Why do I doubt?! Why do you doubt? Email me at angelaxid@gmail.com- I would be so honored to pray with/for you about whatever.
I love you!
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Monday, October 05, 2009
Run To Obey
This is from Pastor James Macdonald with Walk In The Word ministries. The strangest thing you might ever hear me say is "I love being obediant." Don't tell my mom!! :) Some friends of mine who aren't Christian will probably read this and think, "huh?!". I don't know. All I can say is, being obediant to God is great. He came to me once, about 7 years ago, asked for one small move in His general direction, and it changed everything. God has changed and is continuing to change everything, and I want more.
Run to Obey
"I will run in the way of your commandments when you enlarge my heart! Teach me, O LORD, the way of your statutes; and I will keep it to the end. Give me understanding, that I may keep your law and observe it with my whole heart. Lead me in the path of your commandments, for I delight in it." - Psalm 119:32-35
Obeying God is a phenomenal thing.
You know you're talking to a baby Christian when you hear things like, "The Bible says to do . . . what? That just doesn't make sense to me," and "Isn't that a little crazy?" When someone new to Christ hears a call that demands him or her to go against the natural human tendency to protect or promote self, the person will sometimes react.
Not so for someone who has walked with God for a long time. We know that every step forward is a step of faith. Obedience to God is not a burden. And once you've done it a few times, you realize how awesome God's program is.
Every time I do what God wants me to do - I get blessed. Every time I humble myself and ask for forgiveness or reach out in relationship or deny my flesh or give to the Lord's work or make the choice to serve or open my mouth and speak for God - I get blessed! Every time! Obeying God always makes things better, even when it's hard. Even when the good outcome takes a while.
The more you get to know the Lord, the more you realize that everything He asks of you is for your good. I'm thinking right now of that amazing pronouncement in Romans 8:28, "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose." When you get that panorama perspective of life, then obeying God today is not a burden; it's a joy.
Things will always work out for good when I obey God. If I could live my life over again, I wouldn't go back on any of my obedience choices, but I'd go back to some disobedience choices and change them in a hurry.
Today I purpose to obey the first time, every time. Let’s be like David who said, "I will run in the way of your commandments when you enlarge my heart!"
Run to Obey
"I will run in the way of your commandments when you enlarge my heart! Teach me, O LORD, the way of your statutes; and I will keep it to the end. Give me understanding, that I may keep your law and observe it with my whole heart. Lead me in the path of your commandments, for I delight in it." - Psalm 119:32-35
Obeying God is a phenomenal thing.
You know you're talking to a baby Christian when you hear things like, "The Bible says to do . . . what? That just doesn't make sense to me," and "Isn't that a little crazy?" When someone new to Christ hears a call that demands him or her to go against the natural human tendency to protect or promote self, the person will sometimes react.
Not so for someone who has walked with God for a long time. We know that every step forward is a step of faith. Obedience to God is not a burden. And once you've done it a few times, you realize how awesome God's program is.
Every time I do what God wants me to do - I get blessed. Every time I humble myself and ask for forgiveness or reach out in relationship or deny my flesh or give to the Lord's work or make the choice to serve or open my mouth and speak for God - I get blessed! Every time! Obeying God always makes things better, even when it's hard. Even when the good outcome takes a while.
The more you get to know the Lord, the more you realize that everything He asks of you is for your good. I'm thinking right now of that amazing pronouncement in Romans 8:28, "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose." When you get that panorama perspective of life, then obeying God today is not a burden; it's a joy.
Things will always work out for good when I obey God. If I could live my life over again, I wouldn't go back on any of my obedience choices, but I'd go back to some disobedience choices and change them in a hurry.
Today I purpose to obey the first time, every time. Let’s be like David who said, "I will run in the way of your commandments when you enlarge my heart!"
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
A Year Ago...
My dear friend came over to my house, we had dinner together, laughed together, and then she committed relationship suicide and ended our friendship. Thus far to this day, unreconciled. Has it been a year?! On one hand it seems like yesterday, because I'm not fully healed from this- as evidenced by how I still miss her, and my limited ability to forgive. And on the other, it seems like a million years ago, because God has brought me this far, and I love Him and am so grateful for what He has done- and is doing- in my life. This story is still incomplete. The circle hasn't closed yet...
Shadows...
"Life is full of life and shadows.
Oh- the joy and oh- the sorrow.
And yet will He bring day from night,
And yet will He bring dark to light.
When shadows fall on us,
We will not fear- we will remember.
When darkness falls on us,
We will not fear- we will remember.
When all seems lost,
When we're thrown and we're tossed,
We'll remember the cost:
We are resting in the shadow of the Cross."
--David Crowder Band, "Shadows", Church Music.
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